Life......Not Always The "Ideal Situation"

Tomorrow is "D" Day and I should be sleeping, but instead I thought I'd blog, get it all out so to speak. When some people ask me about the divorce and I answer honestly, they're surprised. Surprised that I have already moved on and I am actually looking forward to the divorce. What most people don't know, and I haven't even shared here, is that my soon to be ex husband was a cheater. Not just once, but many times over. When someone does that to you after promising you forever, then it is unforgivable. I stayed so long for a few reason, but one of the reasons being that I refused to "give up". "Till death do us part" and all that jazz. Then, last year, I realized that I would one day die, and I did not want to die thinking that I could have been with someone who was faithful, who did love me more than life itself, and also, I didn't want my children growing up seeing it. So I made the choice to move on. It wasn't easy, but life is never easy, is it? So tomorrow we make it final, and I am happy about it. I won't apologize to anyone for being happy to no longer be married to someone who obviously didn't love me enough to be faithful. It saddens me that it didn't work out, but we will be ok. Me, my ex and the kids. We've found a way to be a family apart, and everyone is happy. My ex has moved on and is dating someone, and so am I. We're both happy. I am not just happy, I'm actually falling in love. Scary, yet beautiful. He was a friend first, and I think that's why it was so easy. He's also so good with my kids. They love him already. I can't blame them. :)

So even though tomorrow should be a difficult/sad day, it won't be. It will be the end of one part of my life and the beginning of another. I am excited. :)

Me~

Where HAVE I Been?!?!?

I haven't been blogging, that's for sure! I've been so busy with life that it's been impossible to sit down and blog. Since there's so much that has happened I will throw it out there like this.......

• Divorce papers have been signed
• D-Day is next Tuesday, then we have to wait 6 months before it's final
• I will not celebrate our divorce, I think that's tacky
• The kids are growing up...16, 6 and 4 now :)
• I'm dating someone, someone awesome! And it's a very good thing ;)
• I haven't cut my hair in almost a year, and I'm going gray a LOT faster
• I am working more at the pet store and loving it!
• I plan on starting my own photography business soon.
• I'm exhausted almost all the time now, and I look it
• My niece passed away after fighting for so long. Glad she is at peace, but missing her so damn much
• My family is healing. Very slowly, but we're healing
• My teenager isn't doing well....again. We're working on it
• My goal is to have her happy and mentally healthy just in time for collage.....hopefully
• The Ex and I are getting along well. He's happy with his girlfriend and that's a good thing
• I plan on blogging more. I promise :)
• I finally got my clothes line up. Nothing fancy at the moment, but I'm working on it
• Trying to save money and energy is a pain in the ass
• All in all....life is very good. :)

There's so much more, almost too much crammed into my head. I need to get it all out.

Me~