June 19, 2012

Summer....Va...Cation....Now I Panic

Now that school is out, what do I do with these kids??? My teenager is easy.....she's going to work and will most likely be out with friends all the time. Lex is such a sleepy head lately, I doubt I'll be able to get him up and going any time before 10am. Lola, well Lola doesn't like to move much. I've been wracking my brain thinking of things to do this Summer. Here's what I have so far.......
  • Beach.....and lots of it
  • Summer studying on Tuesdays and Wednesdays since I work those days anyways
  • The Children's Museum in Boston
  • Davis' Farmland
  • Zoo
  • Going to different lakes
  • Spending a weekend at a hotel somewhere (Lex loves that)
  • Lots of movie nights
  • Catch some fireflies :)
  • Lots of playdates
That's all I have so far. Lex has lots of Summer school work to do, so our Tuesdays and Wednesdays are full. I'm thinking any rainy days will be movie days. I'd like to do a kids cooking day with them, I bet they'd love that. My teenager will be babysitting the kids from 8am-1pm on Tuesdays and Fridays, which will give her some spending money. I'm hoping to get her in to help out at a shelter near where I work. The place is so full and the woman works herself to the bone keeping the place clean and taking care of the animals. It'll be good for Raven. That's all I can think of right now. I'm not good with this planning crap. So yeah, feel free to chime in and give me some ideas!!


June 18, 2012

Life......Not Always The "Ideal Situation"

Tomorrow is "D" Day and I should be sleeping, but instead I thought I'd blog, get it all out so to speak. When some people ask me about the divorce and I answer honestly, they're surprised. Surprised that I have already moved on and I am actually looking forward to the divorce. What most people don't know, and I haven't even shared here, is that my soon to be ex husband was a cheater. Not just once, but many times over. When someone does that to you after promising you forever, then it is unforgivable. I stayed so long for a few reason, but one of the reasons being that I refused to "give up". "Till death do us part" and all that jazz. Then, last year, I realized that I would one day die, and I did not want to die thinking that I could have been with someone who was faithful, who did love me more than life itself, and also, I didn't want my children growing up seeing it. So I made the choice to move on. It wasn't easy, but life is never easy, is it? So tomorrow we make it final, and I am happy about it. I won't apologize to anyone for being happy to no longer be married to someone who obviously didn't love me enough to be faithful. It saddens me that it didn't work out, but we will be ok. Me, my ex and the kids. We've found a way to be a family apart, and everyone is happy. My ex has moved on and is dating someone, and so am I. We're both happy. I am not just happy, I'm actually falling in love. Scary, yet beautiful. He was a friend first, and I think that's why it was so easy. He's also so good with my kids. They love him already. I can't blame them. :)

So even though tomorrow should be a difficult/sad day, it won't be. It will be the end of one part of my life and the beginning of another. I am excited. :)


June 12, 2012

Where HAVE I Been?!?!?

I haven't been blogging, that's for sure! I've been so busy with life that it's been impossible to sit down and blog. Since there's so much that has happened I will throw it out there like this.......

  • Divorce papers have been signed
  • D-Day is next Tuesday, then we have to wait 6 months before it's final
  • I will not celebrate our divorce, I think that's tacky
  • The kids are growing up...16, 6 and 4 now :)
  • I'm dating someone, someone awesome! And it's a very good thing ;)
  • I haven't cut my hair in almost a year, and I'm going gray a LOT faster
  • I am working more at the pet store and loving it!
  • I plan on starting my own photography business soon.
  • I'm exhausted almost all the time now, and I look it
  • My niece passed away after fighting for so long. Glad she is at peace, but missing her so damn much
  • My family is healing. Very slowly, but we're healing
  • My teenager isn't doing well....again. We're working on it
  • My goal is to have her happy and mentally healthy just in time for collage.....hopefully
  • The Ex and I are getting along well. He's happy with his girlfriend and that's a good thing
  • I plan on blogging more. I promise :)
  • I finally got my clothes line up. Nothing fancy at the moment, but I'm working on it
  • Trying to save money and energy is a pain in the ass
  • All in is very good. :)
There's so much more, almost too much crammed into my head. I need to get it all out.