February 26, 2010

Mommy Movie Moment Part II

I normally wouldn't do this, but I just have to finish what I started. Wow! I can't believe I just said that! HAH! Here are a few other movies I've seen that, in my opinion are pretty darn good. I'm fixated on a Michael Fassbender at the moment because he's a phenomenal actor!! Here are a few movies he's been in that I've seen......

Hunger. This is a Steve McQueen movie that I normally would not have seen if Michael Fassbender hadn't been in it. Tough to watch, hard to understand because of the deep Irish accents and just all around sad. Full synopsis here.

Eden Lake. Again....only saw it because he was in it, but I actually really like this movie! Intense and very sad. Not a happy ending at all.

Fish Tank. This movie made me feel weird. Just creepy! But still very good. I didn't think there was going to be a happy ending. Thankfully, there kinda was.

Inglourious Basterds. This movie was GREAT! Very bloody and violent, but the plot, acting and visuals were excellent. Brad Pitt was amazing! Loved it!

The Hurt Locker. This movie was extremely intense. Kevin and I both loved it. Although he hated the ending, where I loved it. :)

Zombieland. Holy hilariousness!! This movie was funny AND a bit scary. I hate Zombies. But this movie was excellent! Loved it!

District 9. I was pleasantly surprised by this movie. I didn't think I was going to like it, but I loved it. It was very sad to me though. :(

Star Trek. Seriously? Do I even have to tell you how awesome this movie was? Do I? Well then, it was AWESOME! Really, really loved it!

Now, I'm no movie critic, but I love movies and I'd like to think I can tell a good one from a bad one. I recently started watching movies I would never in a million years watch if it weren't for Michael Fassbender. And no, I am not a stalker, he's just an amazing actor! So I've ventured out of my movie safe zone and I liked it. :) You never know till you try it!

February 25, 2010

Mommy Movie Moment

I used to do this all the time on my other blog, back when I had tons of time on my hands. :D I have seen a few movies lately and thought I should blog about how great, or horrible, they were. I'll start with one of my favorites......

Blood Creek! You may be asking yourself "What on EARTH?!" And say.....Michael Fassbender. Nuff said. Kevin and I both really liked it. Scary, bloody...our kind of movie!!

G.I. Joe: Rise Of The Cobra. Let me just say that the effects were great! The story was good, but Tatum Channing should just not be an actor. The acting was horrible! I bet a whole bunch of pre-teen/teenage boys loved this movie! Us, not so much.

Sherlock Holmes. Great, great, GREAT movie! A bit long, but bearable because it was good. The effects were great, the acting was fantastic and we loved how dark it looked. Kevin and I took Raven with us to see it and she fell in love with Robert Downey Jr., of course. :)

The Box. We watched this last night and loved it. A bit depressing, but still very good.

New Moon. Forgive me if I've already posted about this movie. I went back and couldn't find anything, so I thought I'd write about it now. I took Raven and her BFF to see it. I bought tickets 2 weeks in advanced, we got there an hour early and we STILL had to wait in a line that went all the way out the theater. -_- Now,  I've read all the books and I liked then. I'm not CRAZY about them, but they're entertaining. I was looking forward to seeing it. I almost choked on all the estrogen, and couldn't help but laugh at my daughter and her friend who would squeal every time Jacob was on the screen. By the way, I felt like a huge perv for looking at that YOUNG man with his shirt off. He was jacked! So not right. Anyway. The movie was good, the effects were just ok, the acting was just ok, but I was entertained. I was even more entertained by my daughter who was weeping tears of New Moon joy the entire ride home. HAH!

Daybreakers. -_- This movie was the biggest waste of money and date night ever. And I love vampire movies!! This was just horrible. Hated it.

There are a few more I need to write about, but I have things that need tending to. I'll finish up later. :)

February 24, 2010

Word(full) Wednesday.....

This little girl is the sweetest thing.......
My Favorite! :)

This teenager is the funniest kid........

And this little boy will steal your heart.......

Then there are days like this:

This little girl can be so goofy.....

This teenager can be such a pain.......

And this little boy can be extremely tiring.......

But for the most part they make me laugh, so I can forgive almost anything. Even throwing pee on one of their siblings. :)

February 23, 2010

How Fast Things Can Change!!

Last night while Lex and I were cooking together I thought to myself..."My goodness! He is growing up so fast, he's actually much easier to handle and so sweet. I've hardly had to raise my voice. I'm going to blog about it! He's FINALLY moving into the FOURS!" And he has been good! We think he's not acting out as much because he got his new glasses and can actually see!


He's just been sitting around watching SpongeBob, making me read book after book to him, playing nicely with Lola, and he's actually much more into our daily "school/art time". He's writing his name better, too! So here I thought things were going to be smooth sailing from now on. I thought he was actually growing up!! I thought we were moving out of the threes and into the fours! Then that all changed at bathtime and I knew that we were just moving into a different phase. Everything was great. He and Lola were playing nicely, sharing nicely and I didn't have to say a word to either of them. So I let my guard down and started brushing my teeth. That's when I noticed he was standing up in the tub with the rinse cup over his privacy. Yes, he was peeing in said cup! And I was not fast enough. Poor, poor Lola got pee thrown on her back. ((sigh)) Needless to say, bathtime was over. I wish I could say "I couldn't believe what he'd just done!" but that is totally something a boy would do. LOL! Gross, but true. Look, I know they pee in the tub. I know this! But what he did was going just a bit too far. I had to rinse her off, wash her AGAIN, then rinse her AGAIN then do the same to him. Just YUCK!

He kept apologizing, saying he was sorry, and I told him I wasn't angry with him, but that is just not ok. Bathtime was over. He was a little sad, but he got over it. And so far nothing else drastic has happened today. But then again, I'm at work. Who knows what poor Kevin is going through. I'm sure I'll hear of some hilariousness when I get home. :)

February 19, 2010

The MOST Embarrassing Mommy Moment Ever!

I am the Mommy of 3 wonderful children. Raven is 14, Lex will be 4 soon and Lola will be 2 in June. But to say that parenting has been a "pleasure" this entire time would not be the entire truth. I was a single Mother with Raven, so I took her every where with me.......even the public restrooms. This is where I learned that you can not control life. Things will just happen. When she was almost 3 I took her to the mall to buy some new clothes. Nothing new, she went with me every where! I don't know what happened on this trip that changed her, but something happened. I remember that we were at the shoe store, I believe it was BAKER'S, when she said she had to pee. No biggie! We were in full force potty training and I was used to the frequent bathroom trips. While I was helping her potty I realized that I had to go, too. So when she was done I said to her...."Raven, I have to use the bathroom, too. So please just stand there while I go." This was nothing new to us. We had done this a million other times and she was such a good girl!!! This time, not so much. She started talking about things that made me blush!! There were other people in there and she was talking about "the color of my undies, the way my pee sounded, why I was hovering over the toilet and not sitting on it, why my butt looked SOOO BIG, why did my pee stink so bad, and why was my butt bleeding?!?!?!?!" Oh my f'ing gawd I wanted to die. I could hear the other women laughing. It was horrible! That's the day I truly became a MOMMY!

Fast forward 11 or so years. Now, I KNOW that it's coming......the inappropriate bathroom talk. But nothing can prepare you for it. Just yesterday I took my darling son to Chuck-E-Cheese's while my teenager got her hair done. Of course while we were there he had to use the bathroom! I went with him, helped him out, but then the sight of him urinating made me had to go, too. I looked at him and said...."Lex, Mommy really needs to use the bathroom, too. Can you please come with me and wait while I go?" He, of course, is more than willing to do ask I asked him to do. While I'm doing my business he's standing there staring at me, which I'm used to, but then he moves to the rear of me and is staring at my behind! I said..."Uhm, Lex, what are you doing? Please come stand by the door." which he replies as loudly as he can "WOW!! Mommy!! Your BUTT is peeing!!! But don't worry, there is no poop or blood coming out of your butt. Just pee!!!" -_- Oh joy!! Did I mention that it's school vacation here and the place was packed?!? Honestly though, it didn't bother me as much as it did the first time Mom washing her and her little girl's hands. HAH! The look was priceless! I just kept thinking......"You just wait. Your daughter is only 2. Wait till she's 3 and she's not only purposely testing you but she's also talking about your vagina in public. I just smiled and said....."Kids! They really do say the craziest things!!" We washed our hands and left Chuck-E-Cheese and I was never happier.

I know there are more embarrassing things to come and I'm ready for them! My husband? Not so much. :) He'll survive though. Just look at me, I survived. And believe me when I say that my teenager said some pretty crazy things when she was little.

I'm Not Just A Mommy.....I'm Also A FURRRR Mommy!!!

Yes, I have animals and lots of them. 3 dogs and 2 cats. Ok, maybe not lots, but we do have a few. Here they are.......

This is Chewbacca. He is a long haired Chihuahua. He was a Valentine's Day gift from my husband about 6 years ago. He is now 7 1/2. :( He's my grumpy old man and I love him so!

This is LUUUUUUCY!! I say it like that because she is our bad dog. She eats poop, runs off, steals food from the kids and anyone else that is daring enough to get too close to her while holding a chicken leg. But she is sweet. She's a mini Dachshund. She loves to cuddle and is always cold. I swear I could set her on fire and she would still be cold!

And this is Miss. Molly. Molly is a mini Cairn Terrier. She is the sweetest thing and tries so hard to be loved, even though she doesn't need to try very hard. Molly has Addison's disease and has to take steroids everyday and goes in once a month to see her Vet. for a corti shot or else she'll die. Taking care of her is a privlage because we love her so much!!

Our cats won't sit still long enough for me to take their pictures. Their names are Mina & Orbit. They are insane. Nuff said.

If my husband let me I'd have tons of Chihuahuas!! My breed of choice. I just love their ears, their cute little faces and how devoted they are. Great! Now I'm jonesen for a puppy. Hey, it'sw better than wanting another baby!!!

February 17, 2010

Excuse Me While I Make Out With My New Camera

My hubby bought me the Nikon D90 and I LOVE it! I bought it on Sunday, got it on Tuesday. Doesn't get any better than that!!!!! I've already used it a lot and the pictures are amazing!! I need to read the manual, but reading something so complex with kids running around isn't the easiest thing. I need to concentrate. I'm thinking I'll ask Kevin to take the kids out for a while so I can get through it. I'm impatient though and just want to know everything right now! A friend of mine is coming over Saturday to show me a few things. It came with 4 lenses and 3 filters and I have no idea how to use them! He's a pro, so I'm sure he can give the the rundown.

I really should just take some classes. There is actually one starting in the Spring that I think I'll sign up for. And my boss just teamed up with a photographer to do some contest, cutest pets and such, and she said she'd be glad to take me on as an assistant (unpaid of course) just so I could get some experience. This really isn't the road I had thought I'd end up following, but I love taking pictures and I have this amazing camera, so why not?!

Here's a picture I took and all I did was resize it.......

You can really tell how reddish brown her hair and just how blue her eyes are!!!! I am in love. So much so, I've totally neglected the house today. HAH! I did give the kids a bath though, but they only had yogurt and Poptarts for breakfast. Shame on me. :D They'll live.

I'm going to be shopping for a bigger camera bag and some new lenses. I'm going to make a camera strap cover, because I'm crafty like that! If you're interested here's a tutorial at Design Sponge. Super easy! I'm borrowing my neighbor's awesome sewing machine because I don't have one. Hey, I'm not that domestic!

In other news.....I started Tweeting for money. YES! It's true! I've already made 2 whole dollars!!! YAY!! Here's the place to sign up at........


It's that easy! :)

Ok, time to pry the camera off my neck and get started on dinner. :) I might wear it to bed though.

February 16, 2010

My Son't Has No Consept Of Personal Space

Lex has a problem with keeping his hands to himself. Hell, he has a problem keeping his hands, lips, BODY to himself! It's just with Lola that he's this way....


He says he "loves her so, very much and has to smell her, hug her and kiss her". Poor Lola gets so frustrated and ends up either crying or hitting him. But that does not deter him from loving on her......


I worry that he may hurt her or she'll end up hurting him because he won't leave her alone. She goes right for his long hair, too and that really makes him angry!! Everyone says that it's sibling love and it'll get better. I can't help but think...."Will they both live that long?!"


He does love himself some Lola!!!! ♥♥♥

February 15, 2010

14 Years Ago Today At 2:32 A.M.........

I became a Mother for the very first time. I remember it like it was yesterday. I went into labor on Valentine's day and I had promised my friend and my sister that I would run a bunch of errands for both of them since they were working. What I remember most was my friend's husband saying to me....."Now Nina, you know that today is a good day to go into labor, right? Don't do that!" :D I took off bright and early, despite the cramps I was having every 15-20 minutes. Did I mention that there was a snow storm going on that day? No? Well there was!! I had to go the the grocery store for my sister, pay some bills for my friend and then I had to get all the kids off the bus or at school since they decided it should be a half day because of the snow. I got Diamond and Pearl (yes, that's their names!) first, then went as fast as the snow would allow me to my sister's house so I could be there when the bus dropped Bekah off. I remember pulling up right as the bus was about to pull away, I ran to the doors to reassure the bus driver that I was Bekah's Aunt and the bus driver said...."Hey, you know today's a good day to have a baby don'tcha'?"..... "So I've heard!!" I replied. -_- As I carried Bekah to the car I had a really bad contraction. So bad that I had to stop and breath. That's when I knew I was in labor for real. It was 11:45 a.m.! I went about my day all the while stopping to breath and think about what was happening. I was going to be a Mommy soon!! I wasn't at all terrified, really. I was just calm. There was nothing I could do to stop it, so I was just going with the flow.

My friend was having a "Single's Valentine's Day Party" at her house, and seeing as I was single and all I went! I showed up there trying not to let on that I was in pain so people would just have a good time and not worry about me. We talked, laughed, I almost peed my pants, I ate a whole box of Apple Jacks (sooooo good!!!), then we talked about life in general, we laughed some more and the entire time I was trying not to let anyone know that my contractions were less than 10 minutes apart. A very good friend of mine who is the Father of 4 beautiful little girls did notice that I was in pain and pulled me aside to ask me hoow close I was. I just laughed and said....."'s not that bad! Their about 8-10 minutes apart but I can manage!" He just looked at me and said...."First of all, good for you. But you do know that you should go in because this is your first and you're contracting less than 10 minutes apart, right?" I refused to listen and we all sat there and timed my contractions for about an hour. The excitement was beautiful!! My baby was coming!

About 9 p.m. I thought that it was time to call into work and tell them that I wasn't coming in and it was also time to call my doctor. I started really contracting at 11:45 a.m. and finally got to the hospital at 9:45 p.m.! When I checked in they couldn't believe I had been in labor all day and didn't call. They got me all settled in, checked me and I was 6 cm dilated!! At the time I had no idea what they were talking about and didn't want to know either! My doctor came in at 11 p.m. to talk to me about pain relief and told me my options. I had already made up my mind to do it
the the "old fashion way"! He smiled and left.

For the next few hours my sister sat by my side and coached me through the worst pain I had ever felt in my entire life! At 12:30 a.m. she left to get some food and something to drink. While she was gone I projectile vomited all over the curtains! Boy was she glad she missed that! My nurse, on the other hand, saw the whole thing and had to clean it up. She hated me after that. HAH! About 30 minutes is when the real fun started! I remember looking at my sister during a very long, painful contraction and saying...."I can't do it anymore. I'm dying!" and I promptly passed out for a blissful minute until the next contraction hit. My sister asked the nurse to check me at 1:45 because she thought I was really close, but when she checked me I was only 8.5 cm and not ready. At that point I felt it as time to "take myself away", forget what was going on and just breath. At 2:15 I had the worst contraction ever and I felt my pelvis bone separate. Talk about painful!! That's when I felt the urge to push. I looked at my sister and said..."It's time. Raven is coming! I HAVE TO PUSH!!!!!!!!!". She ran out of the room to get the nurse, they came back in and the nurse had the balls to say....."I just checked her. There is no way she has to push already!" First of all, birthing a child has no rules. You can't follow a birth plan or any other kind of plan. IT JUST HAPPENS! My sister looked at her and said...."You should call her doctor if you're not up to checking. We don't want to bother you! Oh wait! This is your JOB, isn't it?! CHECK HER!! SHE'S PUSHING!!" The nurse actually rolled her eyes as she put her gloves on. Imagine the look on her face when she went to check me and couldn't get past my baby's head. She said...."Nina, you need to NOT push. Breath!" I looked at her with my huge brown eyes and said...." I don't know HOW to NOT push!!!!!!!!" then I grabbed her coat and ripped it. HAH! At that point she became sympathetic and said....."This will be hard, but pant like a dog!!! 2 minutes and the doctor will be here!!" There was no way I was not going to push. A friend of mine lost her son in the birth canal because they told her to not push, wait on the doctor. But I panted through a few, then pushed once just because I wanted a doctor present to deliver my baby. Finally my doctor ran in with about 5 other doctors, because I had maconium in my water, he didn't even bother to put on scrubs, he just dove right in! He looked at me and said......"You ready? You're baby's head is right there, let it out. Just push when you need to!" One push and her arm and head came out. Everyone just giggled and gasped at the sight before them. There was my baby, eyes wide open and looking around!! Second push and out came her whole body! I got to hold her for about a second and in that second we locked eyes, then they whisked her away to clear her lungs.

While I was being stitched up and trying to see what was going on over at the baby table my sister looked at me and said....."Don't worry, I'll see what's going on. " I tried to sit up to see but my doctor insisted I relax while I had the chance. Then all of a sudden all the doctors and nurses caring for my baby started laughing and gasping! I just KNEW something was wrong! But no, my sister came over all smiles and said......"Of course your daughter is over there smiling! She's smiling, Nina!!!" No one could believe it, except me. I knew she was perfection. And I knew she was happiness. So her smiling didn't surprise me one bit. When the nurse handed her to me for the first time I looked at her and sure enough, she smiled. :)

I regret not having a camera then, I wish I had one to take pictures of "the smiling baby" just to prove it all. To this day that is what she is remembered as....."the smiling baby". It didn't stop there. My baby was rolling at 2 weeks, sitting up at 4 months, cruising at 5 months and full on walking alone at 7 months. She is amazing and I love her so!!! And to this very day I still wake up around 2:32 a.m., which is when she was born and even when she's 20 something I will still wake up every February 15th at 2:32 a.m.!!! I am so very proud to say...."That's my daughter!!!"

February 14, 2010

Happy Valentine's Day.........

TO ME!!! This is what I got......

It'll be here next week!! WOOHOO!! Bought time! I've only been drooling over this camera for about a year! :) We buy what we want for holidays ourselves. That's what happens when you've been together for 9 years! LOL!! Kevin bought himself a 58" Samsung plasma t.v. and he hasn't left the house since he set it up yesterday. LOL!! So funny. I can't wait to get my package in the mail!! YES!!!!!! Now, how am I going to get through this week?!?!?! UGH!

We're taking Raven out for her birthday to the Hard Rock Cafe in Boston. I still can't believe my baby is going to he 14!!! Wow. Seems like yesterday I was putting her hair in pigtails and I was pushing her on a swing at the park. ((sigh)) :) She'll always be my baby!

February 12, 2010

Foto Friday!!

Yeah, yeah, yeah....I know, I spelled it wrong!! But I was sick Wordless Wednesday and was unable to make it to the computer to post some adorable pictures, so I'm doing it now!!!! Enjoy!!! :D



February 11, 2010

You Know You're A Mom When......

You wake up with the worst stomach ache and still manage to cook, clean, take care of little ones, take care of the dogs, do "school time" with the almost 4 year old, go shopping, make a huge dinner cause your teenager asked you to, take care of the hubby, take care of bedtime routine and then clean the kitchen all the while trying not to vomit. That was my day yesterday. I'm completely exhausted and still not feeling well, but I'm the Mom and I have to keep going. And that's why we women are the Moms, because we can do it all, even when we don't want to.

February 9, 2010

Irrational Mommy Fears

When I first became a Mommy I swore up and down that my daughter was going to die of SIDS. My fear was so great that I would jerk awake, walk over to her crib and if I couldn't hear her breathing, I'd wake her up. She was, in fact, always breathing and would be extremely annoyed when I woke her up. But it made me feel better to know she was alive, so I kept doing it.

Then came Lex. With him I always had the fear of him falling/me dropping him. LOL! I would clutch onto him like my life depended on it! He practically lived in the Baby Bjorn and when it was time to take him out I would sit down on the floor and take him out, you know, just in case he fell. :D If Kevin was holding him and tried multitasking it would freak me out. I'd take him from him and put him down very gently on his playmat or crib. Crazy, right?

You'd think I'd relax a little with the 3rd one, but no, it's only gotten worse. When Lolita was born she looked just like me. I mean, exactly like me. Then as time went on she changed.....a lot. We thought that her eyes would change from dark blue to brown, but they didn't. They got lighter! Now they're light blue. We thought her dark hair would get a little lighter, maybe light brown, but's a reddish brown. So of course my biggest fear is that one day someone is going to knock on my door and say...."We're sorry, but the hospital gave you the wrong baby and we're here to take her back". O_O It crosses my mind every time someone says..."Oh wow! She looks nothing like you!" -_- Yes, I know, but she's MINE!! The truth is, she looks exactly like Kevin's Mom, who passed away a month before Lola was born. We have a picture of Kevin's Mother hanging in our living room and people can't get over just how much Lola looks like her. But still.......I have that irrational fear that someone is going to come in and say we have the wrong baby and take her away. Just sitting here writing this is hard. I'm getting all choked up! I'm afraid someone is going to take my baby!!!

I really hope I'm not alone here. I know it's silly, but I can't help myself. Every time I start thinking about it have to redirect myself...."Stop it. Go brush your teeth or sweep the floor!!". I told Kevin about it and he just looked at me like I was nuts. And I probably am!! But what parent hasn't thought morbid thoughts about their kids? It's normal, right? I sure hope it is!! :) My oldest is (almost) 14 and I still have irrational fears about something bad happening to her. So to all the new Moms out there, don't're not alone. And no, it never goes away. :)

February 8, 2010

Ahhhhhhhhh!!! Fresh Air!!

Today I took the advice of my virtual friend, Carlie, and I took my kids outside for a bit. It was cold, 20 degrees, but we did it anyways! It took me 20 minutes to get the kids all bundled up, but that was ok!! We took the dogs out, I let Lex herd them around for a little while, then I put them back inside and came back out till their tiny noses turned pink! It felt really nice. I'm probably going to do that every morning, if possible. I hate the cold, but my kids are so calm now, I was actually able to shower while they played quietly and not one incident!! I don't wanna push my luck though. LOL!!

I am so ready for Spring. I want to open my windows, go outside barefoot, take the kids on long walks to the parks and cookout!! I'm done with Winter, but unfortunately it is not done with us. More snow coming tomorrow night. ((sigh) So I figured I better get them out while I can. This is what's happening to my child due to lack of sunshine and fresh air......

Lola's New Trick! HAH!

HAH! Ok, so maybe she's just doing it to make us smile, either way, very funny and very cute. :)

February 7, 2010

Old School Parenting vs. Modern Parenting

You know what I'm talking about! When I was growing up my Mom didn't think twice about spanking  me, telling me "I brought you into this world and I'll take you out!!!!!", she wasn't my friend and she reminded me of that everyday!! She would let my sister and I walk to the store alone to get her cokes and us ice creams. I don't think we ever owned a car seat and we rode in the car with no seatbelts or in the back of a pickup truck. I gotta admit, that was fun. Dangerous, but fun!! She smoked and drank in front of us all the time. She would let me drink sweet tea. She never supervised me while I brushed my teeth, which means I didn't half the time. We played outside till it got dark and we were not required to check in. I never wore a helmet while riding my bike. Nothing was childproofed in our house. My brother took a bottle till he was 4.......sometimes with juice in it. It was "Do as I say and not as I do!!!" in our family. We were taught to never question adults, they were right and we were wrong. We were to be seen and not heard, especially when we were out or we had company over. And last, but not least......we walked to school alone!!!! Sometimes our school was over a mile away and my sister and I would walk everyday, no matter the weather. I was 6, she was 11. Don't get me wrong, we were cared for. We had plenty of food, we were clean (unless it was Saturday, then I was filthy all day) and we had plenty of clothes and toys. That was just the way it was back then. At least for us it was. I think things would be very different for me now if I had grown up with a Mom who was a bit more compassionate and patient. But things weren't different and I'm having to teach myself how to be a "modern parent" with my kids. It's hard when you grow up one way and then are taught that hey, that wasn't the right way at all!! It's amazes me how far we've come!!

Nowadays we have timeouts, carseats till they're a certain weight and height and just rules in general!!! I read to my kids, I brush their teeth, I make sure they eat healthy meals, or at least I try to! My teenage daughter has a cell phone and checks in when she's out, she's home before it's dark in the Winter and home before 5 in the Summer. We pay for her to take the bus and I'll be driving the other two to school myself when it's time. We try to be firm, but loving in our home. I don't have all the answers, but I'm still learning. I might have all the answers when my kids all have kids of their own, and I sure hope that by then they'll finally listen to me. :)

February 5, 2010

Stuck On Repeat

That's how I feel. I feel like I'm stuck on repeat because I keep having to repeat myself every few minutes with Lex. "Lex, stop getting in Lola's face. Lex, stop trying to pull my pants down. Lex, don't throw things. Lex, stop chasing the dogs. Lex, stop laying on top of Lola. Lex, please, just one kiss and one hug then move away from Lola. Lex, Lex, Lex!!!" I forgot how challenging the threes are. Very challenging. So much so, that I think they should change it to "The Terrible Threes" and not "The Terrible Twos".

It's gotten so bad that when I first wake up in the morning I think....."Please, oh please let him wait till after I've had my first cup of tea before he starts his craziness!" I'm afraid to leave him alone with Lola for too long because he might really hurt her. I know that that he wouldn't do it on purpose, but still, she could get really hurt. I'm going to the bookstore to see if I can find anything that can teach me how to deal with him. I've been through it before with Raven, but that was a loooooooooong time ago. I need a refresher course!

Don't get me wrong, he is a sweet, loving (almost too much!), well behaved boy most of the time. I know that he's testing me, seeing how far he can go, and I hate it. I feel overloaded with things to do. House cleaning, cooking, taking care of the kids, the dogs, the cats, myself, and now I have to stop what I'm doing to make sure Lex is behaving himself. Every. Five. Minutes!! I'm at my breaking point and need help. So off I go in search of some answers on how to be a better Mommy!!! I'll leave you with a glimpse at my darling child......


February 4, 2010

I Don't Know How To Feel About This....

I've been having some "issues" lately with my body. Unexplained weight gain, moodiness, AF comes twice in one month some times or not at all, I'm bloated and just miserable when AF is here because it's rough! I went to see my OBGYN yesterday and as soon as I told him what was going on he said...."You are no longer ovulating. Time to hit the reset button and see if we can fix it. Birth control for 6 months, see if that works, if not, we'll go from there." Now, I've said it over and over again.....I am done having babies, but to have my doctor tell me that I can't have kids because I'm not ovulating anymore is a little heart breaking. I'm not going to lie, I pride myself on the fact that I got pregnant in a snap when I wanted to. Now, I can't anymore. Kevin is upset, he wants more kids and now that's not possible. I know he was kind of hoping to have an "accident", and every month he was let down and now this. Poor guy.

It's not unheard of that women my age go through early menopause, I'm trying to be optimistic though. We'll see if the birth control works, if not, then hey, it's just something I'll have to live with. I'm not having hot flashes just yet, so I'm not giving up!! :) God help us all of I am going through early menopause. My Mother was a demon when she went through menopause!! Horrible, just horrible!! So let's all hope that it's just my body is out of whack and needs to be reset. Fingers crossed!!

February 2, 2010

My First Born

Next week my first born child will turn 14. Yes, 14 years old. Just 4 years shy of being "legal".  Just 2 years shy of getting her driver's permit. 14 years have gone by in a flash. I blinked. When will I learn not to blink?! She was born naturally, came into this world with her eyes open and a smile on her face. Not much has changed. Well, except that she is now almost taller than me. :) She is growing into a smart, beautiful young woman with a mind of her own and I couldn't be prouder. It isn't easy, raising a teenage girl, but I hope that I'm doing a good job. Now..........let's see if we can make it to 18 without one of us trying to kill the other. :)

So Grown

February 1, 2010

Day #15 Of Early Intervention

Bye-bye "car"!! Lola's walker is no more. Paula thought she was too advanced for it and thinks she'll be more encouraged to just walk without it. So far Lo hasn't noticed that it's gone and I don't think she will. I hope. :) We have now moved to every 2 weeks of Early Intervention and last week was Paula's last day with us. BOOOO!!! Although we will miss her we're excited that she is moving on to bigger and better things. Good luck, Paula!! Our new therapist's name is Patty, another "P". She'll be coming next week to talk about things we can do to encourage Lola to walk. I'm thinking she's just going to do it when she feels like doing it. That's my Lo!

Now.....about last weeks session. ((sigh)) Lola was horrible. Just plain rotten! She screamed if we tried to make her do something, she screamed if I tried to put her down and she screamed just to be screaming. Unbelievable!  She refused to cooperate one bit. Poor Paula. I told her not to take it personally, Lola had just had a very tough week. She had been sick with a double ear infection and I had to take her to the doctor's office TWICE and then she had her laser treatment on top of everything else. She she was tired of people touching her. So it was an "o.k." session. Paula wants me to try helping her walk up the stairs holding one of her hands and having her use her other hand to brace against the wall while walking up. She hates it. -_- She just wants to crawl up the stairs and doesn't want me to help at all. I'm just going to let her go at her own pace and see what happens. We've already paid for the next 6 months of Early Intervention, so I'm going to let her take 3 weeks off and just forget about trying to "make" her walk and see what happens. Fingers crossed!!