August 25, 2011

Being Productive......Or At Least Trying To Be!

Since "D Day" (Divorce Day) started I have barely had time to really clean or organize my house. Things have fallen behind. For example......the fish tank. Those poor fish were swimming in filth. I felt bad, but I literally had no time to clean the tank. It just had to wait. I finally decided on Saturday that I would take the lazy way out and buy a new tank. The old one made too much noise and was leaking, so I got a 10 gallon tank at Walmart  for $30! Got home, cleaned the new one and all the new rocks, then filled it with water, treated it and started the filter. I had planned on letting it run for at least 2 days before adding the fish, but when I woke up on Sunday the old fish tank had just died! Talk about good timing!! So the fish were introduced to their new home. :) Lex was ecstatic and I was glad I had finally gotten ONE thing on my list accomplished. YAY ME!! I then went into the kitchen to hear our cursed microwave beeping away and the number 2 flashing over and over again, so I unplugged that damn thing, put a free sign on it and put it on the curb. You have no idea how happy that made me. My mother gave me that microwave a few years ago and it's been cursed from the get go. I wanted to take a hammer to it just to make myself feel better, but then I knew no one would take it. Someone took it less than an hour after I put it on the curb. People will take anything. Another thing on my list completed.......I passed the curse along. YAY ME!! I hope they enjoy the endless beeping. HAH!

Next on my list is the giant pile of clean laundry sitting in front of my closet. What's wrong with me? I could be doing that right now, but then I wouldn't be blogging and then I would feel like I was letting someone out there down and I just can't do that. ;) So there it sits, mocking me and my lazy ass. Then there's the bathrooms.....I am ashamed to say that I haven't scrubbed the floors in weeks. I've done the 'ol "lick and a promise" (quick floor cleaning with a Clorox wipe and a promise to do better the next day. My Grandmother taught me that. Thanks, Nanny!) but I haven't actually washed them. That's pretty gross considering my son likes to spray when he pees. I've actually had to say "You shake AFTER you're done peeing, not WHILE you're peeing!" So I'm pretty sure it's gross down there. I think the best course of action is to play the lottery, win and hire someone to do it for me, because  I seriously do not see any free time in the near future to be able to get it all done. Sorry, house! You're on your own for a while. I'm going to lay down now and cry. Or not. ;)

August 23, 2011

Feeling It Now.......Fear

I hate that word.....fear. I've never been one to "fear" anything (other than spiders), but with the divorce finally starting to become real, we're getting ready to file papers as soon as we can figure out what the Hell most of it means, I'm realizing that I am going to be on my own! All alone!! Not only the money situation scares me, it's the not having that extra pair of hands or the extra set of eyes to help keep my kids safe. Lo is at that age where she is starting to just bolt and OMG is it scary!! I was that crazy lady in the pet store parking lot screaming "LOLITA ANN JOLIE!!!! FREEZE! FREEZE!! FREEEEEEEZE!!!" and chasing her around the car. It was not one of my prouder moments. It's moments like those that make me grateful that I didn't let Kevin talk me into "just one more".

I know that somehow, probably with me working my ass off, everything will be ok. And when I say I work my ass off, I mean it. All day, every day. So glad that we are now back on school time, that means the kids are asleep at 8 pm! WOOT WOOT!!! You have no idea how much easier that makes things for me. I was letting Lex have "movie nights" and let him stay up later than usual, like 10pm and then Lo would be up all damn night with night terrors and then I'd be up early and well, you know how it goes. So when I think of being alone, it scares me. When I think of supporting three kids on my own, it scares me. When I think of how many spiders I'm going to have to kill myself, it scares the shit outta me. BUT, that is just how sure I am that I do not want to be married anymore. I'm willing to do this alone. Kinda sad actually, if you think about it. Poor Kevin. He's really not that bad, it's just, well......ok, maybe he is. LOL!! I kid, I kid!! ;) Let's just say that his humor has saved him many times.

I look forward to the end of this chapter and the beginning of the new one, because frankly, I'm kinda sick of talking about "the divorce", being a "single mom AGAIN" and so on. I want to get back to life, blogging more and finally setting up my damn clothes line that's been sitting in my mudroom for weeks! Maybe tomorrow I'll post pictures, something fun. ;)

August 7, 2011

The End Of Summer.......Which Means.....

IT'S ALMOST BACK TO SCHOOL TIME!!!!!! ((sigh)) It's obvious that I'm a huge fan of school, I mean, who isn't?! The kids are out of the house for 6+ hours a day! It's glorious. I will say though, I had contemplated homeschooling for a hot second, but now that it's just me here and I have to definitely go back to work full-time, there is no way I can do that. So I lay my children's education and future in the hands of the public school system. Let's hope they do a good job. So far so good. The teenager has a 3.8 GPA. YAY! My least favorite part of this time of the year? School shopping. There is nothing I despise more than shopping and I have to do it twice this year. It's torture. Especially with the teenager. Nothing against her personally, but her taste in fashion makes my eyes bleed. Not to mention my wallet. Luckily Lex is easier. I just go and do it. He doesn't get a say in anything other than shoes. Sorry, kid.

So I have two more weeks of a house full of screaming kids and hormonal teenagers. Just two more weeks!! I think I can do this. ;)

August 3, 2011

I Just Had An Epiphany!

Now that Kevin is no longer living at the house I can do whatever I want!!! Like.....put out a clothes line. I love hanging my clothes outside to dry, Kevin did not. He hated it. He wouldn't even listen to me when I told him how much energy and money we'd save. Nope. He wanted none of it. Well now I'm going to hang my clothes out. And if he sneaks in some of his dirty clothes (which pisses me off since his girlfriend should be doing it. WTF am I? A maid?) I will hang them outside, like it or not. HAH! Another thing I plan on doing all the time..............wearing sweatpants.....everyday.....the same pair. Who cares?! My kids just want me to wear pants, they don't care what kind of pants. I like to wear my hair in a bun on top of my head. Kevin always said I looked like the Alien Queen from Aliens. Jerk. Now do you see why we're getting a divorce? By the way, I told him about this post and he laughed and said "While you're hanging your laundry out back will you be playing the banjo and wearing a wifebeater?" (-_-) He thinks it's funny, but once I clear out that junk drawer of his and put all my tampons in there he won't me laughing. ;)