October 30, 2012

Sloooooowly But Suuuuuuuurely Looooooosing My Miiiiiiind.......

I've got too much on my plate. I'm losing my mind. There. I said it. My man thinks I'm Super Mom, but I am failing, miserably. I am behind on the dishes, laundry and cleaning. Granted, I've been working a lot, but this has never been a problem before. I think I need to adjust to having him living with us. It's kind of throwing me off. I have one extra person in the house who needs/wants/loves spending time with me as much as the others. So, just to clarify, I have 3 dogs, a kitten, 3 kids and now a man and they ALL want to spend time with me or need something from me. :) I have a full house and a full heart. I just need to get a new, newer schedule going. Getting a maid would be much easier, but I don't see that happening any time soon. ;)


October 25, 2012

I'm Going For It......

There's nothing like someone losing a job, having no health insurance and being broke as Hell to light a fire under one's ass. I love photography, I always have. Now I'm taking it one step further and starting my own business. I'm no professional, but I do have a really good eye and an even better camera. I already have 3 photo shoots lined up, and I hope to get my cards made and passed out within the next few weeks. I made a Facebook page already and I'm currently working on a website. Here's my Facebook page......Threes Photography. I'm very excited about this! I'm hoping to take a class next year to learn more, but for now I'm just doing what I love to do, making people happy. :)


October 22, 2012

The Not So Natural Mommy.....

I used to look at Moms that would make their own cleaners, cook like they actually knew what they were doing and think to myself "Ppft! Morons".....but then I became a Mom myself and now I do all those things. Well, I used to. I slacked for a while there, became cheap because I had to, but now it's different. Now I have to again. Lo loves taking bathes and naturally I scrubbed the shit outta that tub with bleach and other various trendy cleaners. Then she got a yeast infection and it was a bad one. We had no insurance, but her pedi was kind enough to tell me what to do without having to bring her in. They usually run their course in a week if you're careful and keep things as natural as possible. So I went back to using apple cider vinegar and water to clean. God I forgot how awesome that stuff works. And my hands are super soft!! Can't beat that! I found a website that lists all the wonderful things apple cider is good for. Here ya go.....enjoy!!


October 16, 2012

When It Rains, It Pours....

I hate being negative, so I won't be. Let's just say that it's been raining and pouring all over my life lately. Ex lost his job, which means we lost our health insurance, so of course Lo gets a yeast infection and of course my teenager's meds cost $140 dollars and of course I fell down the stairs and can barely move. I am begging the universe to please, please, please keep everyone healthy. PLEASE!! I can deal with my back, I can scrape by and borrow money for the teenager's meds and I can keep Lo's yeast infection from getting worse, but anything else, well we just can't afford that right now. You know, health insurance was something I kind of took for granted. I mean, I was very grateful for it, I knew we were lucky, but I never in a million years thought I'd be without it. Never! Just goes to show you that anything can be taken from you in the blink of an eye. So now, I sit here thanking the universe that my children aren't deathly ill and need constant medical attention, or tons of meds. We're very fortunate that it's minor things, and I hope to keep it that way. :)


October 12, 2012

And Then.......Reality Set In....

Seems like yesterday everything was "normal" and the biggest problem I had was "which one do I get the kids for Christmas? An XBox or a Wii". Now I'm all like...."HOLY SHIT MY EX LOST HIS JOB!!" My main source of income was child support, and now I'm not even sure when and if I'm going to be getting any. I am not working full-time just yet because Lo isn't in school and we couldn't afford preschool or daycare, so we decided that I would stay in the house and live off the child support until she was in kindergarten. Now it looks like we're going to have to figure something out. I know what you're saying right now..."Your ex isn't working, make him watch Lo while you work!". I wish it were that easy. He was in the radio business for 20 years and he was very, very popular. Right now he's trying to figure out where he wants to be, he's meeting with people every other day and he's working on putting together a demo to send out to radio stations and agents. So yeah, he's not just sitting on his ass. We're hoping he isn't out of work for too long. 

So for now I'm just trying to keep my hopes up and not worry too much. Worrying never solved a damn thing. I started working on my photography website last week. Very hard to do at home because my computer is trying to die on me. NOT YET, COMPUTER!! NOT! YET! After I get the website looking halfway decent I'm going to make up some cards to pass out. So yeah, anyone need a photographer? Will shoot for food. ;) 


October 7, 2012

The Bossiest 4 Year Old You'll Ever Meet

When I was pregnant with Lola we had no idea if we were having a girl or a boy up until the day before she was born. She barely moved in the womb, I had no symptoms at all and my stomach was the only thing that got big. Really big! After a very traumatic 12 hours, I gave birth to the sweetest, BIGGEST baby I had ever seen. We only stayed in the hospital for a little over 24 hours because she was soooooo good at nursing and she was obviously very healthy, so they let us leave early. She continued to be the best baby ever. Sleeping through the night from the get-go, nursing was so easy with her, she never cried, never even made a sound, even when she was hungry or needed a change. She was my last baby, and I had hit the jackpot!! Years passed and we struggled with a few issues. She didn't walk till she was 2 1/2 due to a fever that set her back months, constipation was her nightmare and she had a brother who loved to treat her like a doll. She was such a good baby/little girl, that I didn't even mind carrying all of her 25 pounds around till she was able to walk unassisted. I can still see the look of pure happiness on her chubby little face, reaching up to me with her chubby little arms and clinging on as tight as she could. It was blissful. Just look at her little face!!!

She was always this happy. Always! So don't ask me what happened, because the little 4 year old living in my house is not the same little girl. She's mean, she's bossy and just down right rude sometimes. She has her good days and she has her bad days. When she's having a good day she's sweet and funny and so flippin' cut I could squeeze her to death! But when she's having a bad day, forget it!! It's horrible. She will tell complete strangers to "Stop looking at me! I don't like people!!' O.O I have learned over this past year that if shes having a bad day the best way to handle her is with lots and lots of love. Lots of love. It can be very difficult at times, either because I'm already having a bad day, or I'm tired or I just don't feel like dealing with her mood swings, but I reach deep down into my patience reserve and I do it. Let me share some of the various moods of my Lo........

This is Thinking Lo....

This is my Cheese Lo, when she lets me take her picture and actually smiles.......
Upset Lo.......
Trouble Lo.....she's thinking of new trouble
Pissed off Lo. I said no to her here. Lo does not like the word No.
Pretty Lo
And my Sweet Lo....

Her moods vary. This week she's been Pissed off Lo. Nothing I say is right and she hates everything. ((sigh)) Luckily she's so damn cute. I swear it's a defensive mechanism