Christ Almighty!!!

Is the "C" word over yet?? Yes, I'm back to calling it that. I'm spent. I've been working, I've been sick, Lo's been sick, appointment after appointment, up early, to bed late, no money or time for the "C" word presents, I'm freezing and I'm cranky. That's been my month. I was all gung ho before, but now I just want it all to be over with so I can rest. So I don't have to go without the basics, like deodorant, just so I can buy presents for  my kids. You heard me right, I haven't worn deo in weeks!! I also haven't worn makeup either since I had what was probably the worst case of pink eye you've ever seen!!!! I am not even joking......my eye looked just like that. Then there's my teenager's pregnancy. That's right, the teenager is pregnant. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO MEEEEE!!! The best part of that? There is no best part. -_- But don't worry, she's "almost 18 and can totally do this on her own without any help from me". Did I mention I haven't worn deodorant in weeks? So all this sweating is just terrible for me and anyone within a 5 foot radius. And I am sweating!! Todd keeps saying......"We can't raise another baby. We can't raise another baby! WE CAN'T RAISE ANOTHERRRRRR BAYYYYYYBEEEEEE!!!!". I KNOW, TODD!! Just....breath......Nina. Just breath. It can't get any worse, right? While I was sitting on the toilet crying because of all this, and the fact that I stink and look like crap, I felt a great wave of calmness come over me and I swear I heard someone say "let go". And that is what I did, and this is what happened.......

I stopped worrying about the teenager and her pregnancy, it is her pregnancy and it is something she chose, so she can worry about it. Nothing I can do. I stopped worrying about money, and guess what happened? I was offered more hours. I stopped thinking about all the Christmas presents I couldn't buy. Guess what happened then......my sister and her wife dropped off a bag full of toys for the kids. I started feeling good again. Good enough to shower, put on makeup and I even borrowed the boyfriend's deodorant. I may smell like a man, but I look pretty damn good again......for a grandmother. o.O

Me~

Where The Hell Is My Maid?!

I swear to God I am going to fire her when I see her. The house is a mess, the laundry needs to be folded and put away. The floors haven't been done all week. The dishes are piling up and the animals need to be fed. What the Hell do I pay her for? Not to show up? Not to clean? To sit around and do nothing. Apparently so! The nerve!

 I keep having to remind myself that I, in fact, do not have a maid. It's just me. When I remember this I get really sad. The fantasy that I have someone to do all this for me is such an inviting one. I never want to leave that dream. Just think about it.......you leave for work and 8 hours later you come home to a clean house! How fantastic would that be?? ((sigh)) But I don't, and I probably never will. So, I have to make my daily list of things that need to be done, have breakfast and then get to it. Oh the grind!!!!!!!

Me~

Falling Behind......On Everything!!

There was a sickness making it's way through our house and I'm the last one to get it. But hey! I topped them all by adding pneumonia to it! HELL YEAH! That's how I roll. -_- But seriously though, it's been Hell around here trying to take care of the kids, the dogs, the house and still working. It's almost over. I've been on an antibiotic since Thursday morning and I'm starting to feel a tad bit better. I think I've got it worse than the rest did because I have asthma. YAY, asthma!! -_-  The coughing is so bad. I may or may not have peed my pants once due to coughing so hard. Let's not talk about that though. Let's talk about my idea for a business. SAHM/D and Single Moms and yes, Single Dads too, don't get sick days. Parents who work can call in sick and stay home in bed getting better. I know my ex used to crawl upstairs "dying" and slept all day just to get over a stomach bug or a chest cold. Big baby. :) Anyway! My idea is to start a service where we send YOU someone to take over household duties for a few hours while you sleep or go to the doctors without having to worry about your kids or the cleaning! Perfect, right?! I'm a genius!! Or not. It is a good concept though. I can't tell you how many times I've found myself wishing somebody would come rescue me when I was sick and had to care for 2 small children. I'm sure everybody who stays home with kids has wished the same thing.

So now that I'm on the mend I can get back to cleaning my house (which is a disaster!!), laundry and the really important things like Tweeting and blogging. Yup. I'm all about priorities. ;)

Adios Weekend!!

I can't say I'm sad to see it go!! Birthday parties kinda stress me out. It was nice to see all of our friends and all of their kids, but I like it quiet. Lex, on the other hand, is already talking about his next birthday party. ((sigh)) We're done for the year! Sorry, Lola!! You will only be 2 and not know the difference, so it's cake and ice cream here at the house with just us!

I'm looking forward to the weekend already. Kevin is taking Lex and Raven to NY for a convention. It's going to be so quiet here. I love that. Don't get me wrong, I'll miss them, but Lola and I will be here playing quietly, napping together, eating together and I won't have to pry Lex off of her once. :D Wonderful!! Lex is looking forward to spending the weekend at the hotel in the "trip house bed". For some reason he likes to take all his clothes off and hop in the bed to watch t.v. and eat. That's his thing. :) He says "I gotta get maked and get in the trip house bed to eat chips, drink apple juice and watch movies." He will make a great billionaire one day. LOL!!

I'm not much in the posting mood today. I received horrible news. One of my online Mommy friends from JustMommies lost her husband in a motorcycle accident. They have a 4 year old son and a 10 week old son. It just breaks my heart. I've been trying to comprehend what she must be going through, but I just can't. Losing someone you love has got to be the biggest, worst thing ever. I'm hoping she has family to hold her close in her time of need. :(