Back To Normal?

Lola is finally getting back on track. Eating 3 meals a day and regular poops. She is still waking up every 4 hours to eat, which makes me think she's going through a growth spurt. I'm sure she'll be back to her normal sleeping through the night self real soon. At least Lex is sleeping till almost 9, which is great!! Lola usually sleeps straight through from 2-8, maybe getting up once between that. But from 10-3 is still not normal. At least I get a full 5 hours in. :) YAY for sleep!! LOL!!!

Temper!! Temper!!!!!!

My baby girl has a temper!! She wanted to eat and when I didn't pick her up right away she threw her teddy bear at me!!!!! Hahahaha! Lex and I were laughing so hard that he fell over and I couldn't breath. She us acting like a 1 year old now! LOL!!

Baby Update!

Lola! My baby will be 1 next month. Can you believe that?! Where has the time gone? I mean, I know that when I blink my children grow up, but I keep forgetting and I blink anyways. ((sigh)) That's ok. So here is what's going on with the Princess. Her Hemangioma is getting smaller. It's what they call a Compound Hemangioma, a tumor of blood cells underneath the skin and one smaller one on the surface. Her pedi told me that once the one under the surface started going away that it may be very fast and one day just *POOF*, be gone, then the surface one would slowly go away as well. It would take a little longer, but it would most likely go away on it's own. And it is. The bigger one under the skin is now gone. It's just GONE! I was holding her one day and put my hand on her face and realized it was no longer hot and it was soft!! YAY!!!!!! Imagine my relief!! Of course, I knew this would happen as soon as I signed her up for the Vascular Birthmark Clinic in Boston next month. You know kids just LOVE making liars out of their parents!! LOL!! So that's the good news. Now the not so good news.....

She is now into her 3rd round of antibiotics for double ear infections. This is 3rd infection she's had. She's going to be that baby. You know, the ear infection baby. o_O Again, high fever, vomitting and not sleeping. I'm beat! Now she's back to not eating solids. -_- I'm going to give Early Intervention a call tomorrow and see what they say. I know her pedi will gladly give us a referral even though she isn't at all concerned just yet. She's going ot be 1 next month and she won't even touch normal food. What about the cake?! She probably won't eat it. I have a feeling she'll be on formula till she's 18 months and I am NOT happy about that. -_- Maybe I'll get some answers soon. Hopefully I'm just being a little paranoid and they say..."Oh she's fine!! She's just a BIG baby and will catch up soon!" We'll see!!!!!!!!!!!

Quick Update!

No computer for another 2 weeks!!!! Aaack!!! Good news......Lola's Hemangioma is going away!!!!! YAY!!! More on that tomorrow when I can really update.

Stuck In The House

My Lo and I are stuck in the house today. BOOOO!! We had a BBQ to go to and then a bonfire. Oh well. We were able to sit outside for quite a while today. I have a redneck tan. LOL!!! Reminder to self....WEAR A TANK TOP NEXT TIME! LOL!!!!! Here's my beautiful, sick baby.......



She took a short nap thanks to my stupid dogs barking!!!!!!! UGH!!!! So mad!! I had wanted to take a nap, but then she woke up. Oh well. I'm not cooking tonight so I'm going to nap when Daddy and Lex get home. It's so beautiful outside today! I want to nap on my porch. That's the absolute best!! I love sleeping in the sun. :) Time for diaper changing and bath time, then maybe back outside for some fresh air. :) Here's one of Lex before I go.......

FRUSTRATING!!!

My baby is sick and they don't make a cold medicine for infants. -_- So I went to The Living Earth today and found something to give her. I'm just hoping it gives her some relief! The poor thing is all stuffed up, coughing, her face is swollen and she in pain. You can see it in her eyes, she's in pain. On top of everything else her Hemangioma started bleeding AGAIN! Poor kid can't catch a break!

So HARD!!!

Dealing with a teething baby, moody teenager, rowdy 3 year old and a crazy Mother all at the same time is wearing on me. I need a vacation. -_-

That's What I Thought!

I found a forum with tons of resources on vascular birthmarks and they have a section where you can "Ask A Doctor", so I did. I gave him a little background on Lola, her Hemangioma and the treatment we've been give so far. Here is his response.....

Dear Ms. B,
Thank you for the email. This is the type of lesion I would remove. It will almost certainly leave a scar if left untreated and the bleeding is an issue that should be dealt with. In my care, this hemangioma would be removed. The scarring from surgery is minimal and will be less than the scarring that will result if this hemangioma is left untreated. 
Milton Waner
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I started crying when I read that. That's what I needed to hear. Mommy will begin the pushing today. I refuse to let them tell me what THEY think is best for MY daughter. I can't wait for June the 6th!!! Hopefully one of those doctors will take her case!!!

Playing Outside

Every chance I get I take the kids out to play. Every morning we sit outside with the dogs and just watch them play and Lola and I watch Lex chase them. LOL!! It's funny. Lola is definitely and outside baby. Lex wasn't at that age, he preferred to be indoors and away from grass. LOL! Lola likes to grab handfuls of it and stare at it. She concentrates really hard, then just drops it. :) She seems to concentrate on everything new to her. Very curious to watch. It's like she's trying to memorize everything about that one object. :) Kevin says she's either going to be a detective or a scientist. HAHAHAHAA!!!!

I'm taking some time to let their bath toys soak in cleaner. Those things get real nasty, real quick if you don't clean them every day and then soak them every other day! We're going to the park later, as usual. Then for ice cream. :)

So Much Blood!!!!!

Lola scratched her Hemangioma open yet again! We've been keeping gloves on her (socks) and have kept it covered for the most part, but she's at the age where she can take the glove off and pull the bandage off. She does it all the time, therefore, she must be watched at all times. Kinda not easy to do, but so far we've managed. Anyway. She was sitting on the floor watching her favorite Baby Einstein, Baby Monet, and I was doing some reading. I had to go to the bathroom, really bad, and was gone for maybe 3 minutes. I came out of the bathroom and I could see her sitting on the floor and I could SEE the blood squirting out!!!!!! It was a tiny scratch, but in that 3 minutes she bled so much that I could wring it out of her sweater AND shirt! Seriously, it was a lot!! All over her face, her hands, her clothes were soaked and so were her jeans. I just picked up her, she was smiling and laughing. It obviously doesn't hurt her, but my GAWD!!!!!! It always makes my stomach drop and I start to shake. I took her clothes off and tried to apply pressure to it while struggling with a 10 month old. Everyone knows how hard that can be! LOL! I just sat her in the bathroom sink and let her kick and play in the water while I waited for it to stop bleeding. It took forever!! And I was home alone. -_- 40 minutes after this all started Kevin, my Mom and the kids finally get home!! My Mom took over while I made Lola a bottle and myself a glass of wine. -_- She fell asleep, I sat down and just relaxed. I hadn't realized that my shoulders were all hunched up the entire time until I sat down. 

Hopefully this will all be gone in the next year! It has stopped growing, thank goodness, but it doesn't look like it's going away fast enough. Her doctors say that if it hasn't gotten much smaller they'll start treatment on her. She has to be at least a year and a half before they'll touch it. They'll use steroids at first and then laser  treatment and then finally when it's completely gone they'll remove the scarred skin, if there is any. You know, if it was anywhere besides her face I wouldn't care. Not one bit. Her arm, neck, legs.....wouldn't bother me. But it's her face and we all know how other kids and ignorant people can be, and God knows I don't want to have to hurt someone for being an ass. LOL!!!! :D

I Have 3 Kids And I Still NEVER Learn!!!

Why do I keep buying my kids toys to play with when all they want are cords, my water bottle and dishes? Why bother? UGH! Lola has a million toys and only wants her shoes. -_- LOL!! The have little teeth marks in them now. SO CUTE!!!!

HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!

:)

McDonald's Playland

That's where we took Lex today to play for a bit. We found a really nice, CLEAN one about 10 minutes from our house. It's great!! He really needed to get out and run. He can barely keep his eyes open. LOL!!!! Hopefully that means he'll sleep a nice deep sleep with no bad dreams or waking. One can only hope!

Daddy and Mommy plan on watching a movie as soon as we put the kids to bed. Nice, quiet night. :)

New Found Freedom, Boyfriends

Lola has found her freedom thanks to the walker. Have a look......





And Raven's boyfriend is coming to spend the day here with us. -_- Oh boy!!!!! LOL!!!!!

How To Trick A 3 Year Old

When a 3 year old ask you for blueberry muffins and you have no muffin cups to bake them in, convince them that you have blueberry CAKE instead and proceed to make blueberry quick bread. They have no idea. Problem solved. :D

I'm A Horrible Mother :(

I've been so stressed lately with my Mother staying with me and her problems. Then add a teething 10 month old and a very willful 3 year old and you have a disaster just waiting to happen! Well....it happened. Lex and I took the dogs out this morning and he was chasing them, as usual, and trying to kick them :( then he wouldn't listen to me and thought it was funny. I was seriously losing it at this point. So I let the dogs in and went to take Lex's hand to bring him in. He took off. -_- He took off anf ran to the fron to ring the doorbell. Not a big deal usually, but it was raining really hard and very slippery outside and I could see it happening....him slipping and falling down our hill. :( I got so scared and angry at the same time and ran after him to stop him. He didn't fall, thank goodness, but I was still angry that he didn't listen and took off. I spanked him. 4 times. :( I shouldn't have, and felt horrible as soon as I did it, but I couldn't let him see that just then. I put him in time out while I went to cool down and came in and hugged him, told him I loved him and that when Mommy says STOP, to STOP! No running away!! He was crying, I was still shaking and just feeling like a horrible person. We sat together for a few minutes, I held him and told him that I loved him SOOOO much.

Seriously.....I hate this. 3 is wonderful age, but it's so difficult. I need to learn to calm down, breathe and to control my temper. I hate, hate HATE spanking. HATE IT!!!!

Pretty!!!

I never, ever liked putting Raven in dresses, but Lola.....OH BOY!! All I want her wearing are dresses. She's just so darn pretty!!!!! 

Boys & Princesses.....

They just don't mix. We took our son to see Disney On Ice this morning and he was just not into it. He liked it when Mickey and the gang came out but that was it. Whenever the Princesses were on the ice he was like..."Eh. Whatever!" and wanted to do other things. ((sigh)) Raven used to LOVE going to all the Disney shows. We took her to almost every one that came to town. There were a few we actually drove into Boston to see. She was a lot older though, so maybe that's why. We always had seats in the front row when we took Raven. I told Kevin not to waste the money this time, get free tickets from his friend at the DCU center. Thank God we did because it would have been a WASTE to have bought front row tickets. WHEW!!!!!!!

Ok.....Maybe They DO Look A Little Alike

I have never thought that Lex and Lola look that much alike. Then I saw these 2 pictures and thought.....well, maybe. :D

Yeah.....they do. :D ♥♥♥ So cute!!! It's amazing the difference between boys and girls facial structure. She is obviously all girl and even though people still think Lex is a girl because "he has such a beautiful face!" -insert eye rolling here- he still has the bone structure of a male. Amazing. If we were ever to have other kids I wonder what they'd look like. O_O Nevermind. LOL!!!!

Lex & Lola

Lately Lex has been acting out towards Lola. Everything that she has is "his" or he wants to hold her and do everything she's doing. ((SIGH)) It's getting frustrating.  I can't be around them 24 hours a day and every time I'm out of the room something happens. He takes one of her toys or he's trying to make her sit on his lap. o_O I really can't wait for him to start pre-school. Seriously.....it can't come quick enough!